He is Dead

Hello guys,

I feel like it's been a while that I dropped something here and I really apologize for that.

So, I lost my biological father to the cold hands of death last month, and for me, it has really been a rollercoaster of emotions.

Growing up, I had always pictured my dad dying, and my reaction to his death (prolly because he was advanced in age), but I really didn't see this kind of reaction and muddled emotions.

First, he was ill for about 4 months before passing on. And for that four months, I had prayed for his recovery, my siblings did, friends did, a lot of people did but he still died. Even when I (we) prayed and felt or sensed that he wasn't going to make it, we still pressed on in prayers. But still, he died.

Rest In Peace, Chief James Ajenipa Babatayo

In my "muddled and rollercoaster of emotions" 😆, I have thought that maybe God wasn't faithful. I have also felt so hurt at the fact that I prayed but God didn't answer. "Why didn't God heal him?" I thought, "Healing a man is a piece of cake for the God that raises men from dead", "Why didn't God just add one more year?" A lot of thoughts ran through my head but I have come to a conclusion and that is why I am sharing this. My conclusion is that GOD IS FAITHFUL!!!

It doesn't matter what HE does or does not do. His faithfulness can never be tied to Him answering my prayers or not.

I remembered the man who composed the hymn "It is well with my soul". The man, Horatio Spafford lost his fortune and around the same time, he lost his son to fever. Later, when his wife travelled with their four daughters, they encountered a ship wreck and the four daughters were gone. The wife said "God gave me four daughters. Now they have been taken from me. Some day, I would understand why". The husband, Horatio, journeyed where his daughters sank, and wrote the song "It is well with my soul".

Reading their story and the lyrics really encouraged me. (I suggest you do too) The reality that I had nothing dawned on me. All I have is given to me by God and in reality, I am not fatherless because God has been, God is, and God would continue to be my father. So, why worry?

I mean, God is my father. What a sweet privilege!

I have also learnt that it is very easy to say God is good when everything is all rosy for you but can you still say He is good when it isn't?

This experience made me think of Job in the Bible. Job lost all he had. He lost all he had; possessions even his loved ones. But he never cursed God. He still saw God has faithful. So, yes, I am seeing God is faithful and He would always be faithful.

In these past few weeks, I have been able to conclude that it is okay for bad things to happen to good people. Job was referred to as "blameless" by God but he still lost all he had. Imagine God referring to a man has blameless. That's a great honor. But still, that doesn't mean things were rosy for Job. Because you are of the Lord is not a guarantee that bad things won't happen to you. However, the beautiful thing is that He would be with you even in the midst of it all.

Also, the worth of God to me, should never be based on my comfort. Worshipping God should go beyond my blessings. I should not worship God when it's all good alone. Learn to worship God in the good times, the bad times and even the ugly times.

Why am I sharing this?

I just want to encourage someone. Your situation might be worse than mine, your situation can be like that of Job or worse than his. But I want you to know that God is faithful. I want you to know that God knows. Whatever you might be going through, He knows and He would be with you as long as you allow Him. Never let your faith diminish. Increase your faith in Him.

Don't give up on God. Worship him even in the bad times. Still bless Him even in the middle of your trails, pains, grief, troubles and tribulations. He is going to show up for you. He is going to show up in that matter that is troubling you. Keep your faith alive and never let go of Him.

GOD BLESS YOU!

#peace

#hephzibahsdairy

#lightbearer