Hephzibah's Diary

On Thursday, I was supposed to go to a small group with a friend. All dressed up, I stepped out and tried opening the door of my car with the automatic key, and it would not work. Then I tried it the traditional way and stepped into the car, but the car wouldn't start. I was not sure what to do and started panicking a bit. The last time my car wouldn't start, it had a starter problem, and I had to pay a lot to fix it. This time, I was hoping and praying it wasn't a starter problem again. I reached out to a friend who told me to hold off on contacting the mechanic as it could be a dead battery problem. The friend promised to come to check it and jumpstart it in case it was a dead battery problem, so I wouldn't have to pay exorbitant fees to the mechanic. After a few hours, my friend did come with jumper cables and a working vehicle that didn’t have a dead battery 😅, and confirmed it was a dead battery. At first, the jumper cables couldn't reach my car as there were ...

It's been a while since I wrote on this blog, and that's because I have basically been too embarrassed to write anything here. I didn't feel worthy of being the writer of this blog. This is because I told a lie to some people, and I felt like the lie was justified and necessary. I even talked to a few friends about this lie, the reason I told it, and the concept of a white lie. They mentioned that they understood but would still advise me to pray about it and ask God for forgiveness.  I did pray about it, but day in and day out, I kept being consumed by guilt, and my conscience would not let me rest. But do you know the worst thing about telling a lie? being caught in a lie, and yes, I was caught in the lie. I felt so bad; I cried for days and didn't eat for days. I felt like disappearing; I wish I could rewind time and make it all better. I felt very unworthy of my friends, people who look up to me, and even of you reading this blog. I overthink a lot, and at some poin...