I Told a Lie

It's been a while since I wrote on this blog, and that's because I have basically been too embarrassed to write anything here. I didn't feel worthy of being the writer of this blog. This is because I told a lie to some people, and I felt like the lie was justified and necessary. I even talked to a few friends about this lie, the reason I told it, and the concept of a white lie. They mentioned that they understood but would still advise me to pray about it and ask God for forgiveness. 

I did pray about it, but day in and day out, I kept being consumed by guilt, and my conscience would not let me rest. But do you know the worst thing about telling a lie? being caught in a lie, and yes, I was caught in the lie. I felt so bad; I cried for days and didn't eat for days. I felt like disappearing; I wish I could rewind time and make it all better. I felt very unworthy of my friends, people who look up to me, and even of you reading this blog. I overthink a lot, and at some point, I did feel like maybe if I just fell ill, disappeared, or died, it would be better. Yes, it was that bad. 

In the end, I did talk to my sister and a friend about how I was feeling, and I was reminded that I am a human who is not above mistakes and that it's what I do afterward that matters. I was advised not to stay in the negative, to retrace my steps, and to keep shining my light. I did end up clarifying the lie to the parties involved and providing a heartfelt apology.

In moments like these, when shame and guilt seem overwhelming, it’s easy to feel unworthy and lost. But I have come to realize that our mistakes don’t define us; it is how we respond to them that does. It’s not about being perfect; it’s about being honest with ourselves, with others, and most importantly, with God.

Through this experience, I’ve learned the beauty of humility and the power of God’s grace. The Bible reminds us:

• “If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.”(1 John 1:9)
• And again: “The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit."(Psalm 34:18)

These verses made me feel comfort in knowing that God doesn’t demand perfection from us; He simply asks us to turn to Him. His grace is sufficient, even in our weakest moments.

I’ve made peace with my past and chosen to walk in the light of truth moving forward. If you’re reading this and feeling burdened by guilt or shame, know this: there is no mistake too big for God’s mercy. Take it to Him in prayer, seek forgiveness, and let His love renew you.

Thank you for journeying with me through my imperfections. I am grateful for this space to share, reflect, and grow. I pray this serves as a reminder that even in our brokenness, we can still be vessels of light.

Until next time, keep shining and walking in His grace. ❤️

Thank you for reading through, and may God continually bless you!
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